suckers

lesbian killer vampires
vampire lesbian killers
killer vampire lesbians
lesbian vampire killers

either way, they all suck. both blood and money. can't believe i wasted $21 on them last night. at least the drinks afterwards were much better!

the abyss

“Be with me always—take any form—drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh, God! it is unutterable! I cannot live without my life! I cannot live without my soul!”

He dashed his head against the knotted trunk; and, lifting up his eyes, howled, not like a man, but like a savage beast being goaded to death with knives and spears. I observed several splashes of blood about the bark of the tree, and his hand and forehead were both stained; probably the scene I witnessed was a repetition of others acted during the night.

i feel like dying.

mobile

yaay to the ipod touch.

recently got myself an used ipod touch cos it was a super good deal and i totally love it.

love the touchscreen.
love the apps.
love the wifi.
love the fact i can now stream di.fm on my dock.

so nowadays i rarely even turn on the laptop anymore. not that i surf much anyway, but now its like a fortnightly affair to even contemplate using the lappie.

so, sorry if i have not been updating much. anyway, work has been pretty busy with everyone flying overseas and its just me to helm the operations back home, so i probably would not have updated much in any case. life has been pretty unforgiving as well, with meetups and dates and drinking sessions and the gym and tennis and running and all.

loves.

fallin' for you

i don’t know but
i think i may be
fallin’ for you
dropping so quickly
maybe i should
keep this to myself
waiting ’til i
know you better

i am trying
not to tell you
but i want to
i’m scared of what you’ll say
so i’m hiding what i’m feeling
but i’m tired of
holding this inside my head

i’ve been spending all my time
just thinking about ya
i don’t know what to do
i think i’m fallin’ for you

i’ve been waiting all my life
and now i found ya
i don’t know what to do
i think I’m fallin’ for you
i’m fallin’ for you

as i’m standing here
and you hold my hand
pull me towards you
and we start to dance
all around us
i see nobody
here in silence
it’s just you and me

just you and me

leadership

the challenge of leadership is to be strong, but not rude; to be kind, but not weak; be bold, but not bully; be thoughtful, but not bully; be humble, but not timid; be proud, but not arrogant; have humour, but without folly.

indeed. although i have already received my 5 year good service award i am still learning what makes a good military leader. it is so difficult to be one because good is such a subjective term; it is impossible to please everyone and yet make tough decisions which seemingly go against group happiness.

it is an honour to be an officer, but officership carries along with it the burdens and obligations of leadership as well. recently i have been thinking about what does it take to be a good leader, do you have any ideas?